I have decided to quit my job by the end of this month, officially. I love everyone in the team, but This is just not where I belong.

Missed fractions and accounts. Got to get back to where I belong.
But honestly, I couldn't have been happier about taking the job up in the first place. I know a lot of places where I lack, AND I realised, I am quite a 'keeping to myself when not in my age group' person. I used to find it really funny when all the sun sign theories would say that Virgos are shy by nature, I understand why, now.

I also realised that I like it when I am left to mind my own business and when I don't have to interact with team mates much. Not that I don't like them, but just because I don't like it if any one gets in my business. Like seriously, That totally pisses me off.

I also realised that we Do make friends at work. And the ones that stay around. I will miss catching up with Ismail and Sumit after work.

I will also miss all the lunch table discussions. I will miss Britannia.

I will miss the watchman uncle, the watchman guy and the pantry guys. They are all rockstars!

But, nothing over powers the fact that I will see the faces of my friends after a long while, have Saturdays off And maybe even study a while.

I am not mature enough to be working in media, not politically correct enough, not diplomatic enough, but heck, I don't even wish to be. Because then, that will not be me. It will simply be 'the girl who changed when she grew up and got a job'.

Change is nice, but I am not ready for it yet. I like being a kid, and I like it when it's okay to make a mistake and I like it when Neha and Kushi scream 'Kya hoga be tera!' and when Anurag slams the phone down in frustration (and then calls back :) ), and I like it when Ismail says, dude you suck man, you are pathetic and annoying, please don't Ever change, or I will kill you!


:)

Life's screw ups are so much harder to take when you don't know too many swear words..

Bleh..

Now this is what having a job does to you.
I was in the train, on my way to work, when this girl from my school got in. And it took me a while to realise she was there which was when I was sitting right opposite her. Now, I am a 100% sure she was my junior at school and it's been good 5 years since I last saw of her. There could have SO much to talk about. But then it hit me, there could be so much to talk about.

It was at this time that I realised, that I already have too much to say and listen for the rest of the day to want to have any more. Random voices started screaming in my head.
"Why the hell is my system hanging up!"
"Who has the edited pages? We don't have them! Call XXXXX!"
"Where have you saved the text file for this story!"
"Is the transcription done?"
"Arrey, when are you going to finish correcting the pictures!?"
"Has the page lay out been made?"
"Arrey what are you guys waiting for!"
"She's a COW!
"We don't have a good picture for this story.." *panic attack* Getty? nope, Startraks? Nope, Snapper!!? No. "Go through the CDs!! We can't put this picture up, she looks like a fucking retard in here"
"FUCK A DUCK! WHAT IS WRONG WITH MY SYSTEM!!"
"This is ridiculous.."
"Arrey, but who is this women?"
"Who has got the XXX page open!!"
"Where is the magazine gone!?"
"ARREY NO-ONES HUNGRY OR WHAT!"
*phone rings* "Babe, you will totally have to call me back later"
"Somebody please get XXXXX on the line!"
"AC ka temperature kam karo koi! It's fucking freezing in here!!!"
"SAAAAAAGAAAAAR!!!!"
"Listen, can you please bajao.."
"What are we doing?"
"We are so screwed"
"This guy is a fucking moron"
*bang!!* OWWW !!!! "Avanika!!! Don't pull an Avanika!!!!"
"Arrey laddo.. come here"
"FUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK !!!!!!!"
"MY SYSTEM IS TOTALLY DEAD NOW!! CALL XXXXXX!! NOW!!!!
"I WILL BREAK THAT BLOODY A/C IF YOU DON'T FIX THE TEMPERATURE!!"
"I am so screwed.." "tch.. bechari.." "XXXXX don't you irritate me!!!" "Don't yell.. this is office.." "XXXXX!!!!!"


And that was when I realised.. I had two choices:
a. either I can have a good long conversation, long enough for the time it will take me to reach my destination station
b. you can take in the serenity and prepare yourself for the holocaust that is about to dawn upon you.
I chose the latter.

P.S. I love my office. And I love every single body in my team. It's not everywhere you get to scream "I AM SO FUCKED DAMN IT!!!!" to your chief.
:)

Also, if I ever catch up with this person from school (when I am not on my way to work), I am so speaking to her. She seems to have grown into a nice cool girl.
:)

Here are a couple of Hindi movies that should have been BIG hits. It's rather unfortunate they didn't do well at the box office.

Socha Na Tha- This is Imtiaz Ali's ( of Jab We Met)directorial debut. The movie is so nicely put, it makes you smile at the simplicity. But, alas! Both Ayesha Takia and Abhay Deol were infants for the film industry assuring nobody knew them and in turn went to the theaters to sneak peak.
Make sure you catch up with it the next time it comes on TV, or hell, get a CD.
Best Scene - Gaah! The movie is full of them!

TOTALLY RECOMMENDED.

Swades- I really can't get over the fact that this movie was not the kind of hit that it should have been. The scene with the guy selling the glass of water for 25 paise, and the one where Mohan Bhargav (SRK) goes to meet the farmer for lease made me cry. (And no, I don't cry at movies, last time I cried in a movie was while watching Titanic, and NOT when Jack dies, but where the mother is trying to put her babies to sleep when she knows perfectly well that they are all about to die)
This movie, I believe is by far the best work of Ashutosh Govariker AND Shahrukh Khan. MUST WATCH FOR ALL INDIANS.
Best scene - Scene with the glass of water, the other one mentioned above, the one where the elder folks mock him for being a brahmin and yet interacting with the folks of other castes whom they believe to be beneath them. I am a brahmin myself, and believe me you, we still have folks who think they are above and beyond everyone else for just one that reason. I think it's RIDICULOUS.

P.S. All my friends going to the US of A next year, WATCH IT.

Aamir - Although I was never really a fan of, what's his name, yes! Rajiv Khandelwal, I have got to admit, I had a new found respect for his acting when I saw this movie. It gave me shivers(and not in a good way!).
Best scene - The closing scene, where Aamir(RK) is smiling to himself despite the fact that he knows he is about to get blown away but, he is saving a lot of lives by giving up his own.

Aloo Chaat- I just saw this movie today. Although it's nothing extra ordinary, but I loved the way the story goes. Fun to watch and leaves you with a smile. Isn't that the purpose of entertainment?
Best Scene - The one where the firang is sun-bathing on the terrace and guys from the entire mohalla stand on their respective terraces and sigh. (lol, typical north indian mentality!)

Next take - Hit movies that make you wonder, like.. how!?!

Misha Barton's Believe it or not.
























And that's the whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat!!!!!! moment for quite sometime now.
:O

I realised, that no matter how many new people I meet, no matter how many new friends I have made; Neha, Kushi, Ashish, Alkash, Nimish, Sudarshan and Nupur are still the people that I can talk about for hours without having to recollect anything.

It's like, every single moment of my life spent with these folks is etched into my memory.
I guess that's what they mean, when they say, some people are friends for life. And no matter how far the distances be, or no matter how different situations are, they will ALWAYS be remembered in the heart.

♥♥!

There are so many thoughts running in my head right now. Like, it is crazy the way my head is spinning. And NONE of them are related to each other.
To begin with I had a very strange dream. It was like all the people I have come across in my life were put in a mixer and the mixer was running on full capacity.
Anyway, I also saw the promo of the new movie 2012, what I can not seem to understand is:
a. Why is everybody so scared about it already. And I will get back to this topic later.
b. Even if the world was to come to an end, why don't people just enjoy the time that they have in hand.

I want to watch Up . There is too much that I have heard about it.

Why is the weather so unpredictable. It's a burning day today, it might just be pouring tomorrow. I don't mind the rains, but the idea of global warming scares the living shit out of me.

Murphy's law is true genius. It is the single most genuine law of all the laws that we have.

September was by far the most horrifying month of my life, officially. October seems nice.

Why do men believe they are superior to women? It's ridiculous.

I haven't seen a single episode of Big Boss but from what I hear, it's crazy hilarious! Curse my job, there is never a day I step foot in my house before 9.

There is this cat that sits right outside my office, my colleagues call it fat-cat. They all love it (they are all animal lovers, talk about being a misfit). I want to put my foot under its belly, raise her above the ground and then kick her upwards in the air.

Are Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie together? I hear a different news everyday. I liked Jennifer way more than I can ever like Angelina. Brad Pitt is a complete idiot.

Girls are dying for Robert Pattinson. I think he needs to take a bath. I mean honestly, what's the fuss all about?

And oh, I read all the twilight books now, and I believe Edward is gay. Jacob was cool till book three, and then he turns gay too. And their daughter Renesmee,(who by the way kills Bella on her way out, and oh, Edward rips her uterus with his teeth to bring her out) is a freak.

Why can't people turn the taps off when they are not making use of it. It is very ignorant honestly.

And I think I was a little rude to Sagar unintentionally yesterday, I have to look after that.

And oh, it was my buddy Abhi's birthday yesterday. :)

Disclaimer: All the thoughts have been put down the way they appeared in my head, if you have a problem with that, I cannot help it.
That's about it for now. Got to get back to work.